Inside Suzi Chapter 6.5

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Inside Suzi Chapter 6.5

Chapter 6.5

The Chorus

Marcus was asleep.

I could hear his breathing from across the room — that particular deep rhythm that meant he was fully under, the satisfied sleep of a man who had processed the evening and filed it away and was not going to surface until morning. The resort room was dark except for the ambient glow of the pool lights coming through the curtain gap, a soft turquoise moving across the ceiling in the slow pulse of the water. The air conditioning kept the room at the specific temperature of a luxury hotel that has decided its guests should never be uncomfortable about anything.

I was sitting in the chair by the window with my knees pulled up and my phone in my hand, a glass of the minibar wine I'd poured after Marcus fell asleep sitting on the sill beside me.

I opened WeChat.

Mei had sent seven messages since I'd texted her three words on the taxi back from the dock.

Mei: SUZI.

Mei: WHAT DO YOU MEAN 'SOMETHING HAPPENED TODAY'.

Mei: It is currently 9am and I am in a client meeting and I cannot focus on anything.

Mei: Please tell me you're okay.

Mei: Also please tell me it's something good.

Mei: Also please tell me EVERYTHING.

Mei: I'm going to step out of this meeting.

I looked at the timestamps. She had sent the last one forty minutes ago. It was past ten in the morning in Shanghai — she had been sitting in a client meeting with something happened today on her phone for a full hour before stepping out.

I smiled at the dark room.

Suzi: Are you out of the meeting?

Mei: I am standing in a hallway outside a conference room pretending to look at my phone for work reasons which is technically true. TELL ME.

Suzi: I need to tell you this properly. Can you talk?

Mei: Give me two minutes.

I poured a little more wine and waited. The pool light moved across the ceiling. Marcus breathed. Outside, the resort was doing its evening — the distant sound of music from somewhere, a door closing, the soft machinery of a place designed to be pleasant at every hour.

My phone buzzed with a video call.

Mei's face appeared on the screen, slightly out of breath, in what appeared to be a stairwell. Her jacket was on and her hair was immaculate and her expression was the specific expression of a woman who has been sitting on contained excitement for an hour and is now going to release it.

"Tell me everything," she said, before I'd even said hello. "Right now. From the beginning. Don't skip anything."

"Hello to you too," I said.

"Suzi. I left a client meeting. Start talking."

I started talking.

—

I told her the Jolly Roger from the beginning — the ship, the sails, the particular quality of Caribbean afternoon light, the rum punch. She listened with the focused intensity of someone watching a film she has been waiting to see, her face entirely present on the screen.

I told her about the man at the rail.

"He just appeared?" she said.

"The way people on boats appear. He was there and then he was talking to me and it was easy."

"What did he look like."

"American. Mid-thirties. Not remarkable. Tan from the vacation."

"Not remarkable," Mei repeated. The specific Mei tone of someone filing information carefully.

"He had nice hands," I said.

"Oh we're going to come back to the hands." She shifted in the stairwell, resettling herself against the wall. "Keep going."

I told her the anklet — him noticing it, the quality of the second noticing, what had passed between us without words.

"He knew what it meant," Mei said.

"He didn't know what it meant. But he understood what it communicated."

"Which is a different thing."

"Which is a different thing," I agreed.

Mei was quiet for a moment. Then: "I love that anklet so much."

I laughed. "I know you do. You picked it."

"Marcus picked it. I just explained to you what it meant. There's a difference." She waved a hand. "Keep going. The rum punch. The man with nice hands."

I told her the conga line.

I watched her face change as I described it — his hands finding their way from hips to ass, the slide of his palms, the moment his thumbs grazed the underside of my breasts and I kept moving. Her expression cycled through several things in quick succession and arrived at something between delighted and reverent.

"You kept dancing," she said.

"I kept dancing."

"While a stranger's hands were on your tits."

"While a stranger's hands were on my tits. On a boat. In the Caribbean. In front of forty people none of whom noticed."

Mei pressed her hand over her mouth. Her eyes were bright.

"Suzi," she said from behind her hand.

"I know."

"You absolute —" She took a breath. "Okay. I need to hear the next part. Please."

I told her the table.

The no available chair. The decision that had already been made before I thought about it. Sitting down on his lap in front of Marcus and the Texas couple and the afternoon.

Mei made a sound that was not quite a word.

"You sat on his lap," she said. "In front of Marcus."

"There were no chairs."

"There were no chairs," she repeated, in the tone of someone quoting scripture. "She sat on the stranger's lap because there were no chairs. I'm going to use this as an example of lateral thinking in my next leadership seminar."

I burst out laughing and immediately pressed my hand over my mouth so I wouldn't wake Marcus.

"And Marcus," Mei said. "What was Marcus doing."

"Sitting across the table. Watching. Not doing anything about it."

"Because he didn't want to."

"Because he didn't want to," I confirmed.

"And the hand under the table."

"On my thigh. Not moving. Just — there."

"While Marcus watched."

Mei exhaled slowly. "Your life, Suzi. Your absolutely extraordinary life." A pause. "Okay. I need the rest. I can tell there's more. I can see it in your face."

I looked at her on the screen.

"There's more," I said.

—

I told her about seeing him near the stairs.

The moment of recognition. The walking toward him with the specific quality of a decision that had already been made. The kiss.

Mei went very still on the screen.

"You kissed him," she said.

"I kissed him first," I said.

"First," she said, noting the word. "Which implies he kissed you back."

"Immediately."

"And then."

I held her gaze on the screen.

"We went below," I said. "To the bathroom. And I locked the door."

Mei's expression did something I had never quite seen from her — a stillness that was not composure but its opposite, the stillness of someone who has received information that has stopped all the usual processes. Then she said, very quietly: "Tell me."

"I took my bikini top off while we kissed," I said.

"He took it off?"

"I took it off myself."

Something moved through her expression. "Of course you did."

"He looked at me the way they always look," I said. "That specific look. And then I went to my knees."

The stairwell was completely silent for a moment.

Then Mei said, barely above a whisper: "You went to your knees."

"I wanted to make sure he never forgot that afternoon," I said. "I wanted to take my time with it. Pay attention. I wanted him to be thinking about this boat trip ten years from now."

"Oh my god."

"He hadn't expected it. You could tell — the sound he made when it started, the specific sound of someone who cannot believe what is happening. And I liked that. I liked being the thing that produced that sound."

"Suzi."

"And Mei — I thought about Marcus while I was doing it."

She blinked. "You thought about Marcus."

"I thought about telling him. About what his face would look like when I told him. And that thought —" I paused. "That thought made me press my thighs together on the bathroom floor."

Mei let out a breath that was almost a laugh and almost something else. "You were on your knees in a ship's bathroom thinking about your husband's face."

"I was on my knees in a ship's bathroom thinking about my husband's face and pressing my thighs together because the thought of telling him was making me wet."

"Suzi." Mei's voice was very specific now — the voice she used when something had exceeded even her considerable capacity for being impressed. "You perfect slut. You absolute perfect slut."

I laughed — the real one, the helpless one. "I know."

"He came?"

"He came."

"In your mouth."

"In my mouth. I held him through it. And then I stood up and fixed my bikini top and looked at myself in the mirror and felt —" I stopped. "Calm. That's the only word. Completely calm. And satisfied. Like I had done exactly the thing I meant to do."

"Because you had," Mei said. Simple. Certain.

"Because I had," I agreed.

Mei was quiet for a moment — the specific quality of Mei quiet that meant she was choosing her next words with actual care.

"Tell me about Marcus," she said. "After. What happened."

—

I told her about the taxi back. The resort room. The apology I'd offered and what had followed it.

"You apologized," Mei said.

"I felt I should. It was unplanned. It was more than we'd specifically —"

"Suzi."

"I know."

"What did he do when you apologized."

"He kissed me," I said.

Mei's eyes went very wide. "He kissed you."

"He kissed me. Knowing. Knowing exactly what had just been in my mouth and what I'd done and he crossed the room and took my face in his hands and kissed me."

She was silent for a long moment.

"Mei," I said. "Say something."

"I'm trying to," she said. "I'm trying to find words. Do you think —" She stopped. Started again. "When he kissed you. Do you think he could taste it."

The question landed with a specific weight — direct, wicked, entirely Mei, the question nobody else in my life would ask and the one I had been turning over in my own mind since the moment it happened.

"I don't know," I said honestly. "Probably not — I'd been back on deck for a while. But the point isn't whether he could taste it. The point is that he knew. He knew exactly what had happened and he kissed me anyway. Like —" I searched for it. "Like it didn't change what I was to him. Like it confirmed something rather than threatening it."

"Like you were still his," Mei said. "More his, even, for having done it."

I looked at her on the screen. "Yes. Exactly that."

"Because you came back," she said. "You always come back."

"Always," I said. The word Marcus had come on. I hadn't told Mei that part yet. "That's what I told him. That word. And it — it unmade him."

"Of course it did." Mei shook her head slowly. "Of course it did. Because he's been waiting to hear it. Not the word specifically — the understanding behind it. That you can go and do and be all of that and still —"

"Still come home," I said.

"Still come home," she said. "Which means he gets all of you. The version that belongs to him and the version that belongs to herself and the version that belongs to the afternoon on a boat in the Caribbean with a stranger who is going to think about you for a very long time."

I sat in the dark resort room with the pool light moving across the ceiling and felt the specific truth of that settle into me.

"Mei," I said.

"What."

"I asked him how he felt about having a slut wife."

She stared at me for three full seconds.

Then she said: "You did not."

"I did."

"Those words. That exact question."

"While we were — yes. Those exact words."

"And he said."

"He said he felt like the luckiest man he knew."

Mei pressed both hands over her face. From behind them, muffled: "I need a minute."

"Take your time," I said.

She lowered her hands. Her eyes were bright in a way that might have been tears and might have been laughter and was probably both. "You said that word to your husband," she said. "Your word. The one we gave you. And he said —"

"Luckiest man he knows," I said.

"Suzi." Her voice was very soft. "Do you understand what you've become?"

I thought about that honestly.

"I think I'm still becoming it," I said.

"Yes," she said. "That's exactly right. But look how far you've come."

—

We were quiet for a moment — the specific quiet of two women who have said something true and are letting it sit.

Then Mei said: "Can I tell you something?"

"Always."

"I have been daring you for a while," she said. "The anklet walk. The mailbox. The department store. The photo to Tom. The phone call. All of it — I was giving you stairs. Manageable steps. Building toward something."

"I know," I said.

"And then you went to Cancun," she said, "and on a boat in the Caribbean with a stranger whose name you don't know, in a ship's bathroom on your knees, you didn't take a step."

I waited.

"You took a leap," she said. "An enormous, unplanned, entirely your own leap. With no dare behind it. No setup. No safety net of knowing it was part of a plan." She looked at me through the screen. "You just did it because you wanted to. Because the afternoon led there and your body said yes and you trusted it."

"Yes," I said.

"That's different," she said. "That's fundamentally different from everything before it. Not better or worse — different. Because it means the dares worked. Not because you followed them but because you don't need them anymore."

I sat with that.

"You think I don't need them."

"I think you've graduated," she said simply. "I think you know what you want and you know how to go get it and you have a husband who will kiss you when you come back from getting it." A pause. "The dares were training wheels, Suzi. You just rode down the hill without them."

I looked at the pool light moving across the ceiling.

"That's either the most encouraging thing you've ever said to me," I said, "or the most terrifying."

"It's both," she said cheerfully. "That's how you know it's true."

I laughed softly.

"So what does that mean," I said. "Going forward."

Mei looked at me for a long moment. "It means you trust yourself," she said. "It means when the moment comes — whatever moment, whoever it is — you already know what to do. You've known since that bathroom. Possibly before."

"And you?"

"I'll be here," she said. "Watching. Cheering. Living vicariously through every single detail which you will share with me in full because that is the agreement." She paused. "I don't need to dare you anymore. I just need to hear about it after."

"That's a promotion for you," I said.

"From dare-giver to chorus," she said. "I'll take it."

"You'd make a good chorus."

"I would," she agreed. "A very enthusiastic, occasionally profane, deeply invested chorus of one."

I smiled at her on the screen. She smiled back.

"Mei."

"What."

"Thank you. For all of it. The dares and the training wheels and stepping out of a client meeting to stand in a stairwell."

"I would step out of any meeting in the world for you," she said simply. "You know that."

"I know," I said.

We were quiet again. The comfortable quiet.

Then Mei said, almost as an aside: "Tom."

I looked at her.

"I'm just saying the word," she said mildly. "I'm not issuing a dare. I'm not suggesting anything. I'm just — noting. That there is a man who said waiting. Who has been waiting. Who knows what the anklet means. Who has been in the group chat for a while. Who remembers a doorway." She looked at me. "I'm just naming the obvious thing."

"I know what you're naming," I said.

"I know you do."

"I've been thinking about it."

"I know that too," she said. "That's why I'm not issuing a dare. You don't need one."

I looked at her on the screen — my best friend, in a stairwell in Shanghai at ten in the morning, having stepped out of a client meeting to listen to me tell her what I did on a boat in the Caribbean, her face carrying the specific warmth of someone who has found a way to be part of a life she couldn't live herself and is grateful for the proximity to it.

"Mei," I said. "Go back to your meeting."

"I know, I know." She smoothed her jacket. "Are you happy?"

The question landed simply, without weight or agenda. Just the honest inquiry of someone who loves you.

I thought about it.

I thought about the bathroom and the boat and Marcus's kiss and the resort room and the man asleep in the bed behind me and the anklet warm at my ankle and six more days in Cancun and Tom at home with his word waiting in the group chat.

"Yes," I said. "I think I really am."

She smiled. The real one — not the Mei performance smile, not the wicked one, just the smile of someone genuinely pleased on behalf of someone they love.

"Good," she said. "That's all I needed to know. Go enjoy your vacation, slut. I mean that with everything I have."

"I know you do," I said. "Good luck with the meeting."

"It's a lube brand," she said. "Which feels appropriate given what I just heard. Goodbye, Suzi."

She ended the call.

I sat in the dark for a moment with the phone in my hand and the pool light moving across the ceiling and the sound of Marcus breathing behind me.

A lube brand.

I pressed my hand over my mouth and laughed silently in the dark for a long time.

—

When the laughing had run its course I sat quietly in the chair and looked at the room.

Marcus asleep in the bed, the sheet at his waist, his chest rising and falling in the steady rhythm of someone entirely at peace. The pool light moving across the ceiling. The minibar wine gone warm beside me on the sill.

I looked at my phone.

I opened the group chat.

It had been quiet since we left the boat — Marcus's brief message to Tom after we got back to the resort, three words that had simply said: good day today. Tom's reply, equally brief: sounds like it. The specific economy of men who understand each other.

I looked at the chair I was sitting in. At the room behind me — the dark resort room, the pool glow, Marcus's shape in the bed just visible beyond the chair's edge. The cover-up I still had on, loose over the bikini.

The impulse arrived the way they always did now. Already decided before the thinking caught up.

I set the cover-up aside.

I untied the bikini top and let it fall.

I raised the phone.

The photo was simple and entirely itself — me in the resort chair in the dark, the pool light doing its quiet work across my bare shoulders and my breasts, the suggestion of the bed and its sleeping occupant just visible in the background. My face in frame. Not performing. Just present — warm from the conversation with Mei, flushed from the day, entirely comfortable in the chair in the dark in the Caribbean night.

I looked at it for a moment.

Then I sent it to the group chat.

No caption. No context. Just the image, arriving in a chat where a man in a quiet Minnesota neighborhood would find it waiting when he picked up his phone, at whatever hour it was where he was.

I put the phone face down on the windowsill.

I retied the bikini top.

I finished the last of the wine.

Then I got up from the chair and got back into bed beside Marcus, who stirred and pulled me against him without waking, his arm settling warm across my waist the way it always did.

I lay in the dark and looked at the ceiling.

Tom would wake to that photo.

Marcus would find it in the morning.

Neither of them had asked for it.

That was the point.

I closed my eyes.

The Caribbean night moved outside the curtains. The pool light kept its quiet rhythm across the ceiling. And somewhere in a quiet Minnesota neighborhood, a word was still sitting in the group chat, patient and certain, waiting to mean something new.

Waiting.

I had always been coming back to that.

I fell asleep knowing it.